From their glamorous wedding which was broadcast and seen by more than 29.19 million viewers, to the birth of their children Archie Mountbatten-Windsor and Lilibet Diana, their split from the Firm and all the accusations they made against the members of the royal family, the Sussex Royals’ every move has been closely followed by the media. That same media which “forced” them to leave the U.K. and move to the States.

“It’s hard. I don’t think anybody can understand that. In all fairness, I had no idea, which probably sounds difficult to understand, but when I first met Harry, my friends were so excited, my US friends were happy because I was happy,” Meghan said.

“But my British friends, they were sure he was lovely, but they said I shouldn’t do it because ‘the British tabloids will destroy your life.’ Because I’m American, I very naively didn’t get it. It’s complicated.”

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The Duchess added: “I never thought that this would be easy, but I thought it would be fair, and that’s the part that’s really hard to reconcile.” She continued: “I’ve said for a long time to H – that’s what I call [Harry] – it is not enough to just survive something. That’s not the point of life. You’ve got to thrive and feel happy.”

“I really tried to adopt this British sensibility of a stiff upper lip. I tried, I really tried. But I think what that does internally is probably really damaging,” she added.

Megxit had been a tough blow for the British royal family, and sadly, as years go by, Harry and Meghan’s relationship with the rest of the family is getting worse.

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Following the revelation of King Charles’ cancer diagnosis, Harry flew to Britain to meet with him, but whether they tried to repair what’s broken remains unknown.

King Charles has always been very supportive of Harry and Meghan, but their actions following their separation from the family has only angered him.

Shortly after they stepped down from their royal duties, Harry and Meghan gave interview to Oprah in which they revealed that there were conversations about how dark Archie’s skin would be before he was born.

“In those months when I was pregnant, all around this same time. So we have in tandem the conversation of ‘he won’t be given security, he’s not going to be given a title’ and also concerns and conversations about how dark his skin might be when he’s born,” Meghan Markle recalled.

This caused many to accuse the Palace of racism.

At one point during the interview, Meghan said: “I don’t know how they could expect, after all of this time, we would still just be silent if there is an active role that the firm is playing in perpetuating falsehoods about us. If that comes with risk of losing things…there’s a lot that’s been lost already.”

As she didn’t feel like receiving any help from the family when she opened up of her mental issues, Meghan became suicidal.

“I just didn’t see a solution. I would sit up at night, and I was just, like, I don’t understand how all of this is being churned out. And, again, I wasn’t seeing it, but it’s almost worse when you feel it through the expression of my mom or my friends, or them calling me crying, just, like, ‘Meg, they’re not protecting you’. And I realized that it was all happening just because I was breathing,” she explained.

“I was really ashamed to say it at the time and ashamed to have to admit it to Harry, especially, because I know how much loss he’s suffered. But I knew that if I didn’t say it, that I would do it. And I just didn’t want to be alive anymore. And that was a very clear and real and frightening constant thought,” Meghan added.

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“And I remember how he just cradled me. I went to the institution, and I said that I needed to go somewhere to get help. I said that, ‘I’ve never felt this way before, and I need to go somewhere’. And I was told that I couldn’t, that it wouldn’t be good for the institution.”

As the relationship between the Sussexes and the royal family deteriorated quickly, they became more and more distant, and things turned even more heated following the publishing of Harry’s book Spare.

According to reports, following the infamous Oprah interview, Meghan sent then-prince Charles a letter in which she explained that she never intended to accuse the royal family of racism but rather to discuss the unconscious bias.

Charles sent a response to Meghan where he expressed his sadness over the tensions within the family, specifically between Harry & Meghan and the rest of The Firm. The then-prince was believed to have been the only senior member of the royal family to reach out to the Duchess after the Oprah interview.

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Back in 2023, Harry also tried to fix things by addressing the matter of alleged racism within the royal family, telling the interviewer that they did not believe they were.

“No,” Harry said. “The British press said that, right? Did Meghan ever mention ‘they’re racists?’”

“The difference between racism and unconscious bias… the two things are different. Once it’s been acknowledged or pointed out to you as an individual, otherwise an institution, that you have unconscious bias, you, therefore, have an opportunity to learn and grow from that… otherwise, unconscious bias then moves into the category of racism,” he added.